Envision something bad..
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Funny it seems that I can't sleep at this hour. I could try but yeah..sooner or later I will still into slumber.
Funny it seems that i'm thinking the things that would break me. And. I wonder how nasty things could go if one fails.
Funny it seems that when the sun is going up right outside my window, I'm visualizing something about you and me, which I doubt can be considered any good.
After all we've been through, I just wish things could be save. I wish you will love me enough to save it all again. To save me from myself, to save us from falling. But no, here I am thinking if we were to go different ways, you would be a different man. I don't know what but it kills. It kills just by thinking and imagining how you would change and become. Of kills enough just by the thought of it. And so I think to myself, can I, or would I, or will I ever be able to take it if they were all real? Could I ever take looking at you changing and being a different person I know and love? For that, I am afraid. For that I fear. I fear I won't be able to take it, to see you change, to see me change, to see me try to lie to myself and convince that I will be ok without you around. For all of that, I am terrified.
And yes, will this be it? Or it wouldn't be so bad? Well, ... God knows.
