It's been a long ride since 2010 started. I believe I've changed pretty much. Lemme try to list a few:

1. Wear my high heels
2. Did hair extensions which made me feel so fabulouss~ about myself. Haha
3. On the verge of becoming an alcoholic but fortunately I cut down!
4. Finished my Diploma course
5. Mama's getting married again! :)
6. Grown a lot from the relationship with Syahmi
7. Learn to count my blessings (credits to Monica)
8. Love myself more!

That are the few things that pretty much were the highlights of the years so far. I would like to say the 2 major events of this year will be mom's wedding and my lovely 18th birthday I guess? Lol. But you know, it's just saying but as for my birthday, I don't quite know how it's gonna be and I just feel that it's major so that I can buy cigarrettes without feeling that 'Would they check my IC?' and once you're 18, clubbing with friends will be easier in case impromptu outing happens. Haha. However, I do hope mama's wedding is gonna kick-ass though.

For some strange reasons, I feel that things in my life are pretty much in my control now. I've learnt so many things from my friends, their experiences and what happened around or to us. My family also influences my mind and heart whenever it boils down those phone calls my mom make or Rose calling me, and Mon would always say that I am blessed so count my blessings before I complain about life. Alcan and Allison have been the two person I meet up with most of the times since this year I guess. They talked to me on a different level and yes, I love having them around to share my opinions and jokes and everything. Katie has too shared her stuff and shits that she's going through, which made me feel closer to her now. And for that, I would to say that she and I are Man U hardcore fans man! Haha.

I am very glad that at this point of time, I can feel that I am taking things slow and remind myself that it's all in the mind. It's hard to explain, but just make it short: It's a part of growing up, and I'm learning more each day, and I am not taking any of this for granted, and lastly, I am a better me today.

Things with Syahmi have been up and down. However, because of all the things I'm going through besides him, I have come to notice that as much as I love him, if we can't compromise and if any chance we were gonna fight, I wanna be the bigger person. I really love myself a lot more now, and I hope he can see it, and love me for the way I am and all that phases I'm experiencing in life now. Well, again, it's complicating, but you will get it when you're at it.

So.. I'm tired, and I gotta talk to Alcan soon. Syahmi might wake up sooner or later for his guard duty and all. I gotta run now then, just in time huh! :)

Loves~