Adorn you.
Friday, December 23, 2016
As I shut the world
out, Miguel is doing his runs on "Let my love adorn you", i look out
of my train windows from my first class seat, I find myself at a peaceful yet
doubtful state of mind. It's definitely the countryside view as we're
approaching Leicester.. the grand green field of grass, windmills, cottage
houses - they bare something raw, something cold but a few rays of light manage
to fill us up a little inside. It's definitely the joy, the butterflies in my
stomach once again - it's that feeling when I do, or see something new. It's
the train ride, a new sight I'm seeking. Stephen was right, we both are quite "discontent"
people, new things excite us - though they do not necessarily mean better of
course - hence I easily feel down or up, and pleased or disappointed with life.
It's looking dry
outside but I'm sure the dews would have revived the trees and grass. Almost
feels like hopes among the fearful. I feel so close yet so far from myself.
Something unsettling. I could do with a cigarette. I could do with a hug. I
can't keep running away.
Is it magic? When I'm
with you.
It scares me
sometimes how all it takes for me to fall under your feet is your smile. Your
love for me can never be compared to. Yet, your blues eyes doubt me. Your look
questions my black dark soul.
Maybe we could have
been simpler. Not there. But here. This breeze and cold can freeze this moment.
We can be forever here. But maybe that is it. Just here. We belong here.
London - Leicester.
